Death & Afterlife

I am writing because I have many thoughts about the subject of death and acceptance that life is not permenant. I have died twice and escaped death 12 times, maybe more that i didn’t notice. But none of those times have ever changed my dark thoughts to anything other than what they have always been. Life is a tool and some people just don’t know they have a tool. Death comes for everyone, whether you want it to or not, it’s waiting and it will find you. I’ve been labeled as depressed and anxious because of my calmness in the face of my own mortality. It’s not that I want to die. I want to live and when my time to die is near, i won’t fight it or run from it. I’ll be absorbed by the earth and spit back out as a rock or dirt or a hundred worms that all eat the dirt i am turned into and reproduce. It’s all very scientific. Science shows that time after time, this is the way of how it works. People who want to live forever and people who are scared of death, don’t confuse me. I feel as though they are unfortunate enough to have such fear. I feel pity. It must be scary knowing you’ll be gone and people will remeber you and then they will be gone and you will be forgotten. But that’s just how it works. No one is meant to be remembered. I feel as thought this is what drew me to the Church of Gnome. This connectedness to the world around me and to forces beyond my own self. It’s so beautiful, death. It’s a gift. Both Life and Death are gifts. So stop taking them for granted guys! Let’s change things and do good so the people after us have a better place to start from then we did!